Journey of Ri & Nes

   I worked hard to improve my well being, and was finally ready to be on my own. After years of threatening to leave my dead-weight boyfriend, I was actually confident in leaving and staying away, but I was scared of how attached he'd still be to me. After two years of being in a trapped relationship, and after much self-reflection, in the middle of 2017, God put Nestor back into my life. Strangely enough, I myself knew I was finally ready for this moment. A  huge  wave of relief came over me because the light at the end of that tunnel was finally here.    Put yourself in my shoes, I went through SEVEN LONG YEARS of bull shit, not being able to catch a break from anyone or anything. I cried almost everyday because I was going through such a tough time. I constantly asked God why he threw these problems at me all at once because it was taking such a big toll on my mental and emotional health. It got so bad that I began praying for at least one good day...j...

   Turns out being out of high school was just what I needed to begin rebuilding myself because I got my first job and started working a week after graduation. My boyfriend at the time had started having more problems when I found he cheated, but I still stayed with him out of respect for his graduation party coming up soon. For the rest of our four-year relationship full of hate and disrespect, we constantly fought about anything and everything. I pleaded and begged to leave, but he wouldn't let me, so I forced myself to work on my wellbeing alone.    I didn't regret my past because I only regretted the time I wasted on the wrong people. I reflected a lot on my current boyfriend as well as my exes, and how instead of calling them  regrets  for dating them, I saw them as  mistakes . As a normal human bean (I said that on purpose haha), it was okay to make mistakes because you could always learn from it. As I looked back on my fucked up past; both expe...

   As you guys know, Nestor and I met back in middle school when we were pre-teens. We became the best of friends within a few days constantly teasing and calling each other names which we thought was funny because we couldn't take it seriously. (Don't judge. It's how we got along!) I ended up gaining feelings for him first partially due to his outgoing personality (like me!) We didn't actually start going out until the beginning of the next school year. Which I'm sure you guys know the story to that as well. We broke up right before high school started, and I was basically left to fend for myself.    I dated one person towards the end of my freshman year who cheated on me. Then dated him again (I know. I'm dumb lol) in the beginning of my sophomore year only to be cheated on again . Shortly after him, I went on a date twice with someone from another school only to find out we had nothing in common. If you read my other blog ( Read it here now! ) about what hap...

Hey folks! I haven’t posted a blog in a really long time. As you guys know, the last time I came on here was to talk about the events that happened with my  extremely toxic  ex and friends. In the span of a year, there has been such a dramatic change in my life. So much love, happiness, and relief entered my heart, and a huge weight got taken off my shoulders.  When Nestor and I first got together, I remember crying almost every day whenever he comforted me because the words he said was true; “It wasn’t your fault you stayed so long because you wanted to fix things.”“Nothing was your fault. It was his because he let a good person go.”“You’re the strongest person I know. Inside and out.” If you know me, I never  cry in public nor do I like talking about my feelings, but after holding in every thing that happened between me and my ex, for  FOUR YEARS , I couldn’t contain it anymore. Opening up to someone I truly trust was the first step to renewing myself. ...